Wanting someone more than anything but not having a heart to give
If i’ve learned anything in the past year it’s that it is in-fact possible to have love for more than one person and even fall in love with more than one person but in different ways.
I don’t think I’ve yet been “in love” but I think I’ve been so eager to have that experience and want to understand and have that, that I’ve been able to experience something close to it. Many times.
But at this very point, i feel something completely different from all the others
I feel panicked but more safe and secured than ever before
Panic is the best word I can find for the type of love I feel right now
I’m beginning to rely on this boy for my happiness, and saying it out loud I realize how stupid that really is. Why give someone that much power over you, why let your self become so vulnerable?